A list of songs that make me think/feel/wonder/sing/cry/laugh all at the same time.
(In no particular order)

TV Family - The Rocket Summer
Storm (Acoustic) - Lifehouse
You Make Me High - Jason Mraz
How To Save A Life - The Fray
That's So You - The Rocket Summer
Why Georgia - John Mayer
Konstantine - Something Corporate

On a rainy day, plug in the earphones and sit quietly, listen to these songs. The words, the feelings, the music.
Suddenly it all makes sense, you just have to listen.

I can find someone out there that is truly inspiring to the absolute max.
It's an exhilarating feeling to be inspired, it is.

Oh and I've also learned that you can never be satisfied with the way life is.
Because that's just the way we were made. Because if it were ever good enough, we would all cease to exist.
And for that, I guess i am grateful.

Misery, pain, suffering, experience, joy, happiness, love, joy, despair, triumph, wonderment.
They are all the spices of life.

Ride the ride.
Just deal with it and you will survive.

You know, I honestly thought it would hurt more to see that.
I knew it was coming, I just didn't know when.
I bet the little heart is gone too.

It's more like a finalization.
But I'm okay.
In fact, I've been better than ok. (:

I've refreshed my love for badminton and my badminton family.
<3

Hi. Today I actually had a pretty good day. (:
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Note for Esta "Circle":
Stop thinking my thoughts! Whore! (=

I want things to change. Things suck right now.
I'm in a phase where I can't be happy with anything right now.
Nothing.
Zip.


Zilch.
Zero.

I'm sucha cranky biatch, yes I know. (:
So much to be worrying about. Unrest is in the air.
But otherwise, I'm totally ok. Happy, even...

EDIT: omg ON SATURDAY! I went to BILL'S HOUSE!
THRICE THE FISH! ONCE HE'S DONE REMODELING!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
THRICE!
Like, wacky!

People are such bitches. They should die. Like Cathy from East of Eden.
Whore.

ANYWAY, WACKY ADVENTURES AT BILL'S! Dog rope! I broke his stove handle! zOMG 8)

Note to self & anyone else that needs it:

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
& even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

The Cal-Nev-Ha KIWIN'S District Convention was, again, such a wonderful experience.

Young and I are so suffering from Convention withdrawal. I miss it a ton. It takes a lot of energy every day to not start screaming out cheers. I still don't have my normal voice back yet. It's great...except I can't whisper or talk loud or anything.
This DCON was, in many ways, very different from that last one. It was much more....well, different. But it was enjoyable nonetheless and I will surely be going to next year's.
I loved going with a new group of people, the 'Convention babies' as Young calls them. It was a lot of fun. Each and everyone of you brightened up my DCON weekend.
DCON Highlights:
- The hypnotized Kevin Liu, that was effing hilarious.
- Our four trophys, not as many as last year, but eff it. We got Distinguished Club of the Year Award Gold Division. We rock.
- Cheering so damn loud with alla them GAW KIWIN'S kids.
- Having the 'apple juice'
- Seeing people I haven't seen in a longggg time.
- Getting to finally meet Sally in person. She rocks.
- Spending my weekend with all my lovely peoples♥
- Rooming with Young, Esta, Carmen and Jodie. I love these girls.
- Getting second place for our video. (8
- Singing on our balcony at 2:30 in the morning with Young.
- Going to various workshops.
- Getting super hyper. HA! That...was...I don't remember. Haha, I remember bits & pieces.

I'll admit I didn't have as great a time as I had last year, but it was spectacular in it's own way. I really miss it. Nothing about DCON was plain. I miss the excitement, the cheering and the constant companionship of my friends. I love it. I love DCON.
The first night and day weren't as great as the second night. That shizzle rocked. F'sho.
Cavil at Rest was pretty awesome. Not to dance to, but to ...mosh to. Hehe.
I wish so badly I could go back to Convention, it was such a stress-reliever. A break from reality. I LOVED IT AND I WISH I COULD GO BACK. It has left me super spirited and eager to start my term as President with my 'partner-in-crime' Josh Choi. I'm so excited to get started and I pray I can do the job as great as our predecessors.
Congrats to Sylvia for Publications Editor, I'm so proud. Goldstone & Wilson REPRESENT! Yayuh.
Here's to a new KIWIN'S year. To a new year of stress, joys, anger and happiness that go beyond the realm of reality. To a new beginning and a start of a new chapter in my life.

Please let this be everything I need.

It is always said that the word "love" is thrown around too much. I think too much of a good thing makes it void, null and lacking in true meaning.

So...
I really, really like it when:
- You're explaining something to someone and they, honest-to-God completely understand what you mean.
There's nothing better then complete understanding between yourself and another person.
- You're anticipating something, and when it finally comes, it's everything you wanted it to be and more.
- That feeling where you know something good is coming your way, like a surprise party or something. You know it's coming but you feel giddy & excited anyway.
- You wake up & feel it in your bones that you're going to have a good day, and then actually having a good day.
- You hear a song that has lyrics that could not put into better words how you are feeling at that exact moment.
- You see something so pleasing to the eye that iyou wish you could just sit there and look at it for eternity.

Life is wonderful in these little ways...